I feel somewhat lost these days. I love my life!! I am a stay at home mother of four beautiful children and wife my prince. I have never enjoyed parenting as much as I have recently. I have enjoyed finding ways to think like my children, encourage them to be their best, to watch them grow and explore the world. I can honestly say I have THE best kids!! They were saved just for me.
ME- I just don't feel I know who me is. I know what I am, but not who I am. I can quantify myself as a being-I know most of my weaknesses and my strengths. I know my accomplishments, I know my failures. I can tell you my likes and my dislikes but does that tell you who I am?
Have you ever listened to Dr Laura when she says "I am my kids Mom." I have never really thought about that saying much until of late.
I am my kids MOM- I cook for them, I wash their clothes for them, I do the grocery shopping for them, I make sure they comb their hair, brush their teeth, and wear change their unders. Help with homework, teach them life lessons, and provide taxi services to and from where ever they may need to go. Mom means service, and I honestly love to serve! I love to help others BUT on my own terms. If I see a need I will try and fill it. I love the feeling of doing something nice for others. I will gladly do your dishes if you are having a rough day just don't ask me to do them let me find the need. I will gladly be someones friend just don't suggest I need to be. I'll gladly help clean my kids rooms but they better not ask me to. But service doesn't define who I am as a whole and neither should the title MOM.
Last week I decided I have taken this title "mom" a little too far. I need to be a little more selfish at times. So I set 3 goals I must accomplish each day just for ME! I thought I would start small.
1.exercise- park at the end of the parking lot and walk the extra ten spaces, do ten jumping jacks, I even started to coach Daniels soccer team on Thursdays (my favorite!!) just move more.
2.brush my teeth first thing in the morning and last thing at night- laugh if you must but I lock my bathroom door and take two minutes to brush MY teeth
3.read something-usually in the scriptures. I ask a ? during the day and then look for an answer in the scriptures or in a book at night